Believe to Achieve

legs ALWAYS (lower calves to feet) so stiff and achy in the morning I wonder if I can break into a jog.  After about a half hour to an hour they feel a bit better.  But today after hot flashes all night -- night sweats etc.... yup that's the fun of being a woman over 40-- my levels are probably at zero because when I started to run  I felt sooooo depressed.  I decided to just keep one foot in front of the other.  Maybe I am doing too much in too little time?   I feel so Unprepared to "race" st george.  My feeling is to go out and relax and run for me.  Today I realized (again, emphasis here) that my stinkin' garmin needs to be thrown in the gutter!!  I ran a hilly 10 miles and then begrudgingly ran my two fast.  I was soooooo talking myself out of it.  The sun was beating on my face after leaving my house at 8am and getting to the last two miles around 9:20 am.  Did not plan that well but it was quite similar to the heat of SG at that hour.  Fond memories.  Okay -- here is why my garmin sucks--- I started to run my two fast and after about 0.2 miles I looked at my garmin (MISTAKE)-- it said 6:00 pace even. I was like HOLY CRUD slow down girl BUT just before I looked at my garmin I said to myself "I feel like I am running about a 6:30 pace or slower-- better check myself-- I thought I was running slow!!!!!  BUT looking at my pace and seeing it THAT fast "FREAKED me out so I mentally slow it down.  And then what do I do?  Keep checking my garmin over and over cause surely at some point my effort and the reading of the garmin will come to terms with each other and soon the garmin will WIN out as I succumb to the numbers and slow completely from the head games!!!  HOW pscyho is THAT!!!!!!!  I need therapy to get off this thing!!   First mile-- 6:14, second mile with zigzags and uphill finish 6:22.  AP 6:18.  Hmmmmm looks like a time trial OFF the track would give me the 19 minutes I want.  : D.    AP for 12 miles = 8:00.  Recovery first 10 miles ; D.