Believe to Achieve

Okay so  I was/have been feeling pretty sorry for myself that I slipped into a bit of a depression yesterday.  The antibiotics kind of due that to me too.  But the fact that I sound funny and my brain is still congested isn't helping.  But I AM FEELING BETTER. The sore throat is completely gone.  I am not coughing up as much stuff.  I did cough and got some junk out of my TEAR DUCTS!!!seriously, snot through my tear ducts!!  Apparently my FRONTAL sinus and maxilla sinus are the issues right now.  So when  I woke this morning (ABSOLUTELY NO SORENESS WHATSOVER!!!  HIGH MILEAGE BABY!!) but feeling kind of out of if, fuzzy headed and down.  I mean really I pictured August 20th so differently a month and even a week ago.  But I had to pick myself up out of the gutter of despair and SHAKE MYSELF silly.  GET OVER IT Julie!!  at about mile 5 after climbing a steady slight incline and approaching a steep incline I started to slow down and then caught myself and said "this is it Julie, you can't let this little sinus infection/cold get you down.  You can conquer this.  BE POSITIVE>  YOU CAN OVER COME THIS YOU HAVE COME SO FAR STOP WITH ALL THE MOANING AND GROANING.  There are other AUG 20ths out there and that was NOT THE DO ALL DIE ALL DAY.  KNOCK IT OFF.  YOU ARE OVER IT>  MOVE ON>  DO WHAT YOU HAVE TRAINED TO DO.  YOU can still run a 1:26 half and run SUB three.  It is so HAPPENING>   I CAN FEEL IT> IT JUST HAS TO.  Blah blah blah.  mome monologue......  So I did just that.  I kept pushing through the hills and forgot about my sinuses and did what I usually do and kept running.  I even added an extra mile and ran up a rolling hills course to the booth at AF canyon where I hit 8 miles and then turned around and ran back  the same way following the AF half course to AF high school then two more miles to my house.  AP gently rolling up for 8== 8:25.  AP  rolling gently down-- 7:17.  Last mile 6:57.  I am back.  and the GAME IS ON!!  for me anyway.  It is my game and I am playing it to the finish.  NO HOLDING BACK!!!  SUB THREE :D.   AP for 16 miles= 7:49.  Had to stop at a conveniently placed porta potty on 200 north AF (antibiotics giving me the runs) and at the golf course for the same problem.  Water at the golf course up and when I was coming back down.  Alleluyah!!  IT WAS VERY HOT!!    Side story:  On this run I  ran in to Amber Sandberg on the way up as she was running back down.  She told me Brandon told her that he was running up South Fork  when I passed him (I don't know him but he remembered me from his other van in Ragnar last year) running up it on my 11th mile of uphill running (my 22 miler two weeks ago with Mel and Julie) he said  to Amber- "I have never been passed going up South Fork". Well,  I remember after passing him and the other two  guys he was with and then all of the sudden he was right beside me and pushing the pace hard to pass me, so I let him. I thought "Hey I got 11.5 miles to go yet".  Apparently Amber said he totally paid for it  (at least his body did, that last mile up south fork is pretty steep) and she thought it was pretty funny that it was ME that had passed him..  I thought it was funny too and gave me a boost of how far I have come with running hills.  But how with this cold my hills have felt harder.  And now I am re-inspired to push the hills again.  No slacking when I see one up ahead.  PUSHING THROUGH ALL OF THEM.  : D.  At mile 12 coming out of the park where the hill is pretty steep, I was going to slow down but instead, NOPE I SAID YOU ARE PUSHING THROUGH THIS HILL DANG NAB-IT DO IT BY GOLLY YOU ARE  NOT GOING TO DIE!!  And you know what I did and it FELT GREAT!!  :D.