Believe to Achieve

OH MY!! WHAT a GROSS run until the final mile where I felt like a runner again.  Let me just say NIGHT running after I worked all day and ate a lot including two desserts-- banana pudding yum and chocalte cake with whipped cream topping along with Snickers and caramel!!!  I sure felt all that the WHOLE run after getting back at 7pm and taking off at 715pm.  The first mile was so sluggish and surreal, depressing sort of.  I think my cortisol level is at its lowest at this time.  I seriously felt depressed in the smoggy air.  I could tell it was a warm day and the stench lingered in the night air that wasn't that cool yet, but in spots it was.  Just NOT a good week for me headache-wise.  Smells triggering my headaches left and right.  I could smell anyone and everyone's laundry running as I ran by-- NOT pleasant for me.  I think that is why I run so well at 8000ft above sea level-- FRESH AIR without the toxins we put into it.  Off my soapbox...but after literally RUNNING INTO JANE as she was getting out of conference with all her sisters I got a little adrenaline surge.  She is driving me to SG and we have trained together all summer with Kim and Mel and Julie.  It was so nice to see her.  I exclaimed "Oh my goodness Jane there is no way I could feel this bad at SG next Saturday!!".  It wasn't that my muscles were tired  (although my legs felt "heavy") or that my breathing was labored it was just a nauseating depressed type feeling I get sometimes when I run at night.  VERY strange.  I am sure Sasha would have a take on this phenomonon.  After my first mile being a 9:40 (HELL- 0) I am not sure how I awoke the last mile to get in a 7:47.  AP= 8:26 for 6 miles.  I have to also say that it is DANGEROUS to run at this time because the drivers are speeding and don't think anyone would be running.  I had to swerve quite a bit.  So much nicer to have the streets to myself at 430am.  BTW I had to run this evening because I got back from the BYU game so late and our carbon monoxide alarm kept going off keeping us all up figuring out the deal.  My husband eventually detached the battery and opened all the windows.  We have NO FUEL on so not sure why it would do that.  I have had a long lasting headache however so hmmm.......