Believe to Achieve

The extreme no sleep thing is wearing on me that I don't think I will convince myself to get out today.  No words to describe.  My shift was long, working hard for very ill children.  I think I will just enjoy walking around in my newly zeroed sauconys.  They feel great walking around.  My head is in the clouds and my mind fuzzy that neurologically I need to give my body a break.  So much for 60 miles this week unless I turn my 13 miler into 20 tomorrow.  I'd say the chances for that is 50/50.  I've been known in these parts to be a not so anonymous insane runner : D.   I am toying with the idea of a cycling class tonight.   I hope there isn't one available on Fridays so I am not tempted.  Need to go read the rec center's calendar and that's too far away right now (bedroom closet).  I am drifting as I write this so I am going to try to sleep again.  I also will be getting in some walking passing out flyers for the Valentine's Social tomorrow night.  Chocolate Fondue Fountain will be served.  Sorry but I think I am taking another free 1/4 day.  I haven't been able to stick full-heartedly to this no sugar/chocolate thing because otherwise I wouldn't make it thru my shifts in a happy mood.  Probably an excuse but chocolate really boosts my mood before working all night.  Oh well.  I should do better that I don't work until Monday night then have another three nights off then repeat the 5 of  7 night thing again.  Luckily I like my job and really love it when I am working with the babies :  D.   "Wo unto the unintentional LIAR for she shall not....I don't know where I am going with this except...wearing my zeroes around and still not sleeping I told myself to just jog to Kim's and show her my new shoes and that I was wearing the socks she gave me.  She lives a mile a way.  It was 5:15pm. Well, I woke up after my 10:20 minute first mile and the cool sun going down air was just so relaxing that I kept trotting along feeling more and more alive and free.  My legs and feet felt awfully light in my new shoes and I wore shorts with a headband and gloves etc...   I felt so refreshed with every mile.  I kept it easy and my legs were lovin' me.  Did manage to speed it up naturally that avg pace was 9:12 for 7 miles.  I ran on sidewalks and dirt sides of road to try out the shoes.  I am liking them.  Time will tell.  But first day on them very reassuring.  I guess this run means I am not running 20 tomorrow.  Ahh.  Just an easy 13 to make 60.  My nose is not growing.....yet.