1 mile before work, 3 after. Cut it short to save energy to wake up early tomorrow... two 13 hour shifts in two days is hard enough!
So, working a full-time job, going to school for engineering, and running the crazy mileage I was running a month ago is hard to balance, and if something tips the scale, it comes crashing down. So over the past month I've kind of felt myself spiraling and getting into a rut, something I'm getting out of right now. I'm on the upswing, I'm sure of it, so this isn't a pity party post, I'll be okay. However, I've decided to take a break from the blog until after my finals are over. I could blog, it's not a time constrant thing; my reason may sound dumb, but I want these next 7 weeks or so of training to be me and me alone. me against the clock timing those intervals and the world itself. No support from y'all, no "good job". I believe that term plants a seed of complacence in the mind, that instead of striving to work harder, you think that maybe where you are is good enough because other people think so. And no one is harder on me than me, also I think asking fellow bloggers to bully me in my training just wouldn't work the same :) I'll record all my runs on paper and put them in the blog when I come back after finals finish the first week of December. I hope to use this time to make a big jump in fitness, I really do. I hope all of you do too. I'll see y'all then :)
Also my opinion on a couple things before my blogging hiatus:
When I return my training is gonna make Conner's look like Connor's ;) (don't get it twisted y'all both inspire me)
1:59:40 is cool. An incredible feat. However, I feel like this demeans the ratified world record in some sense until it exceeds that, and if anyone but Kipchoge held that record right now, they'll use the argument "yeah, but it's no 1:59:40" until it's under 2 hours. Maybe I'm wrong. It still inspires me to train harder.
Also, I suppose my runs will upload to Strava unintentionally, so some bloggers might get some insight to what I'm doing, I doubt I'll update with actual words though.
Also also, I know I wasted some fitness I built with my summer mileage this past month. But I don't want that to be the highlight of my training, some crazy high weekly mileage(even if I am proud). I want it to be an indicator of what's to come. Something that I can look back at in a year and say "when I ran those 165 mile weeks, that's when I knew I had the talent and capability to do what I've done this past year". And I'll do everything I can to make it so!
Lastly, huge s/o to Kenny for 3:03:30 at Chicago! From the day we first met, I understood he had that same passion for running I had, and he became my first "rival"(it never got in the way of our friendship, even if Kenny has baseless slander in his bio saying I was mad he made Varsity a year before I did. I was proud!) and I hated seeing how his diagnosing of diabetes my senior year kept him back from being one of our top guys in the best year we had as a team in XC. I shouldn't have been fighting for our 3rd varsity spot, it should have been our 4th! But I'm proud he's learned to run with it and if you all don't read his training you're missing out. He's gonna kill it at Boston 2020.
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