Step by step, mile by mile

just realized i missed my blog anniversary for the 5th year in a row. on one hand being a junior in high school feels like forever ago and on the other hand i feel even farther removed from it than 5 years. regardless, i still remember every lap of the region track meet that graced my first post(5 years later and i’m still kicking myself for kicking way too early in that 800m; 100% would have gone to state if i didn’t take that lead 300m in :) ) anyway plan on starting running again tomorrow, been feeling pretty good but got hit with a rough wave of nausea an hour or so ago. i’m far enough removed from actual training that things like 40+ mile days and running 20-milers like they’re nothing are put in perspective, but god can i not wait for them to mean nothing to me again. might see the chiropractor again just to be safe. gonna buy equipment for a home gym tomorrow so my body will match the hair once i get the “brad pitt from thelma and louise” cut i’ll probably get at the end of the month... my hair’s been growing out since december 2018 and it’s basically a radiator in this summer heat 

sotd: enjoy the silence - depeche mode. i can’t believe i forgot about this when making my birthday songs list last month

AM - 3. worked some night shifts this past weekend that messed up a good sleeping schedule so decided to start a load of laundry at midnight, get my run in at 2AM and not get a good night's sleep so i'll be tired enough after work tonight to go to bed early for the first time since february. legs felt good during and after

sotd: something i can never have - nine inch nails. trent reznor's fanbase has to be just about the most depressed in all of music

AM - 3. mainly a test to see if i'm ready to do 5 tonight. survey says... yes!

PM - another 3. brief but violent storm swept through this evening so couldn’t get out until 10PM, and since i work a 16-hour shift starting at 6AM and at least wanted to try waking up early enough to run before that, it’s all i really had time for. 3 runs with no issues, hate to jinx myself but i’m happy about it

sotd: the wait - killing joke. to commemorate the past 8 weeks or so of mental hell i've been in desperate need of running as a means of escape from, the rest of my songs this month are going to be the music i was really into during. so, either unbearably depressing industrial or thrash metal, basically. maybe some horrorcore too(have i already said 1-800-suicide by gravediggaz? i'd have had to)

PM - 3. got cancelled as i was leaving for work this morning, but around noon got called to be told i have to work the night shift now, which, considering i'm scheduled to work the day shift tomorrow, means i have to congratulate hospital management, because this was the 100th time i've thought "are you guys on crack?" !!! your prize is my spite anyway because of that had to do the run at 4PM in 90-degree sunny weather. drank more coffee than water and the only calories i had were in the sugar in the coffee, so when my first run with a watch told me easy pace was 7:08 i was pretty happy.

sotd: dark entries - barhaus. only band that makes me think of joy division, on a musical standpoint. if anyone reminded me of joy division's songwriter ian curtis it'd probably be cobain though. my two favorite songwriters!