8:38. I ran a mile today after not running for a few weeks! I just kept having panic attacks before every run and I wanted to make a fresh start. There are a lot of habits and mindset shifts I need to make so that I do not end up with the same problems. First, I think it's best that I don't push any run 90% of the time. I think if I push it more, then my body will start reacting negatively. So I need to push it very slowly. Second I should avoid looking at my watch or try hitting a set pace. Looking at my watch and trying to go faster constantly is not a good idea if I am trying to listen to my body. Third, I need to keep the mileage very low where I have an extremely quick recovery. I notice that when I run to the point where I need a nap, my day is already ruined by then, and my brain doesn't work very well at that level of exhaustion. My goal is to run at least half a mile a day. I should do it even when I am tired because it seems I am always tired, and half a mile won't hurt even if exhausted. I wish it didn't take this long to just get out for a mile, but I believe it was necessary to go when I feel ready. Healing is a very confusing process but I am figuring it out. |