I thought I gave it my all, I really thought I was trying hard, I mean I think is started to sort of get down mentally during mile 2 onward but really I didnt think I was doing that bad mentally. I'm wheezing worse right now than I have for many years, which is weird. I really tried hard but I just didnt where I wanted to be. I'm going to get where I want to be, I will. I don't care how much work it takes, I just want to get to where I want to be. I don't know what I'm doing wrong but I'm just going to keep trying and one day I'm sure I get where I want to be, and then I will target another goal. I'm not going to give up or let my team down, im going to get faster and if I'm one of the top 5 I at state or region I'm going to make sure there isn't one more person I could have beat by the end of the race. i don't know if I will score but if I do I'm going to make sure I do good for the team, if I get a scholarship for running, it won't be for cross country. I'm not running as fast as I need to run for that, for the 800 when I get to race it as my main event for a meet I might be able to run times that could interest school, or my mile could be good enough if I work at it. The thing about those events is that it's just easier to understand the race and analyze and stratagize the race and I enjoy it a lot more than anything else. I really want to run a sub 2 minute 800 this track season, and I want to do really well for the mile as well, maybe a 4:25 or better. I haven't given up on the cross country season just yet, and I will not give up until it's over, I'm still going to give it my all. I just don't know if my all makes the cut of success anymore, I don't know if the team has a run tomorrow, if I don't hear anything else I think I will just do the gully long run once or twice maybe.
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