Time is unofficial (just based off my watch) and place was irrelevant, but I don't know anyways. Really just disappointed and confused. I don't want to keep thinking about it much longer because I haven't stopped since the race. But basically, my legs were so tired and I still wasn't strong enough mentally to make up for it, and I am just sick and tired of practicing harder and harder and not getting any better. I don't know what else to do.
Positives: Breck aboslutely killed it. Like she was only hoping to break 20, and she shattered it - 19:36! I wish I could have been there with her of course, but nevertheless I am so so so happy for her! She 100% deserved that, the way she's been practicing. Also, my family came to watch so I got to see them and have dinner afterwards. My mom gave me a really good talk after the race when I was so upset and she reminded me how little this is in the scheme of things and how much bigger God is, as well as how much I have to be thankful for. She said it's all I can do just to thank Him for the opportunities He gives me and blessings I have and just ask Him to make me better because I can't do it on my own. I needed that so desperately.
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