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I felt awful today. Idk why. But I'm really nervous for the progression run tomorrow... I just want to feel good. If I felt like I did today I'll be one of the first ones pulled from the track.

I'm really disappointed with the outcome of the progression run. I don't know what place I was, but I made it to camp so I was in the top 15. I don't think I made the traveling team, which I'm really upset about. But maybe if I work really hard I can make it later in the season. I'm frustrated because the progression shouldn't have been that hard. I'm uncertain on what the pace was exactly, but we first did 3 laps at 2:15/per lap then went out and did a loop that I believe was a mile at about 8:15 pace, then the progression started I think? No maybe we did 3 more laps at 7:30 pace? Idk. The progression then began, 6:30 for 4 laps, 6:20 for 4 laps, 6:10 for 4 laps? Then 3 laps at 93, 92, 91 I think? I'm not sure. I didn't make it that far. Then it was supposed to be a mile all out. I think I made it the 6:30 and 2 laps of the 6:20 which is shameful. I'm so discouraged because that shouldn't be that hard! I fell off the pack, then got all motivated again and was gaining ground on the pack but coach still took me off the track. There were a lot of girls that got pulled that lap. I think my plan for right now will be to build up mileage for reals this time and hope that I can gain enough confidence for the road race, which could potentially land me a spot on the traveling squad. 

Today was the second day of camp, we are at 10,000 ft elevation so its harder to run/breathe. In the morning I felt alright, it was really cold out but it felt good. Coach wanted everyone to go at least a mile after the warmups, I went 3 with Ashley even though everyone else turned at the half mile. Ashley added after to 6 cause she's amazing and does 16 miles a day. Later we went to Navajo lake and did a loop that started on the dirt road then turned into trail after the first 4.5 miles. It's beautiful up here! So the first 3 miles were 7:20 average with some rolly hills (though not nearly as steep as Jeremy ranch, just longer) and I was dying. I fell off at about 4 miles, stopped for a sec because I was breathing heavily and I was discouraged that I couldn't keep up. I think I was mostly bugged because a girl I was much faster than in track was still with the group. I had to remind myself that this wasn't a race just a run and that these are my teammates, I guess I'm just not used to running with only girls. I gotta stop being so competitive. Coach was waiting at the trailhead so I felt like an idiot bringing up the rear of the pack (I had chosen to run with the longer distance group). The girls had all waited for me, so that was nice. On the trail as we kept going I felt more and more fatigued, and it was hot. At one point I felt really light headed and out of it, was exhausted and embarrassed that I was the weakling of the group. I soon fell off and completed the last mile and a half on my own at an awfully slow pace, just trying to finish. Ahhh I want to make the travelling team so bad, but if I feel like this for much longer I don't see how I can. I tried so hard to keep up today to show coach that I work hard, but all he must've seen was me tailing behind everyone else. Coach has had some really motivating speeches, and I'm holding fast to some of the things he's said. On a more positive note it's so much fun up here, I love the team and have had a blast.

AM:

After warmups I did 3 with Ashley, Angie and Maggie. I wasn't feeling too great, I think I was still half asleep. But I got it in and that's what matters. Coach has me doing an 8, 10, 12 mile cycle so I think that'll be good, he says he usually doesn't have freshmen do that but since I have more confidence with higher mileage I can go farther, as long as I can handle the intensity of the workouts. I think that'll be my struggle for the next few weeks, but I can handle it. I'm not sure when that cycle starts, I'm gonna guess next week?

PM:

I felt a little better today, not much but any improvement is better than none! I think staying positive is what's going to get me through the transitioning stage. 6 miles on a dirt road, there's a large hill that we ran down on the way out and up on the way back that lasts for maybe a little over a mile, it was pretty tough. The last 2ish miles were tough for me, I started to feel the lightheadedness I felt yesterday. But it wasn't as bad! I think my cold has taken a larger toll on me than I realized, so I think once I recover fully I will be fine!

AM:

I went 3 miles with the other Ashley before we headed back down to Cedar. Camp was a blast!

PM:

I'm learning it's super windy here all the time, which is kind of a bummer but maybe it'll help me not hate wind so much, and maybe I'll get used to it so if it's windy on race day I'll be prepared! Haha. Anyway, I ran on my own later, it was nice to explore. 7:34 average. Cough isn't so wet today, and I've had to cough less because of it. Right before I went running though I had a dry coughing fit and it took forever to stop. I've had a headache all day and still am lethargic. But it's improvement!

AM:

Ran at Bicentennial Park with Ashley, Kacey and Nano. 4.5 miles on the high school course. Then ran the high school meet, it took a lot longer than I expected because we had to take everything we put up back down, then unload it all into the shed. But it was kind of fun I guess, shout out to the Desert Hills boys, they killed it!

Side note: I watched the video of the progression run (Paul's fall was defs the highlight) and counted what place I was when I got pulled from the track, I was 8th! I thought I was 12th, so turns out making the traveling team isn't as far out of reach! So once I feel back to normal I know I can make it on the team.