I warmed up about 2 miles.
Today was Wahsatch Rendesvous, I was number 2 which I was disappointed about. So I had to run with the number 2s from everyones teams. I already had the negative attitude that I wasn't fast enough to run with the fast people, so I was placed in a lower competition race, and really just wasn't in the best racing mode.
I started fast and led for the first mile because I had thought that I could win the race since this was the number 2 people. Yeah, big mistake. I should start being more even with everything, I usually feel better when I do it that way. I hit the first mile in right around 6, I think it might've been a little under. Which seemed good to me because of the course. Then I started to crash, and then a girl passed me and I tried to go with her but couldn't. Then right around the 2 mile mark the next person passed me, I fought her for a while, she gapped me on Miranda and I worked to close the gap up until the Apple tree hill, where she extended the gap and then I couldn't catch her. On Bessie Bill said 4th and 5th were close and I needed to start kicking, and so I did, I was able to hold them off. I actually don't know how far behind they were, but oh well. It was way hot by the time my race started, and literally right before it started it got way windy. Cooled down about .75
My time was really slow and I'm disappointed about it. And 3rd of the 2nd fastest people doesn't make me happy either. Lately running just doesn't have the spark it used to, now that I feel like I'm getting worse instead of better. Really I'm just disappointed that for the second year in a row I worked really hard during the summer and can't do well during the season. Maybe I just suck at cross country races and am better at track ones. I don't know but I'm really struggling to find the joy it used to bring me.
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