I'm not crazy...I'm just bored!!

This was a sad day. I wasn't into it. I think my legs AND brain were fatigued from the weekend's activities. I got there late, because my boys are off track and I didn't have to wake up. I only got to run a half mile with Amy before she was done and then I chatted with her for a few while she did weights. I then went back to the track thinking 5 or 6 for the day would be plenty. After about a mile I passed Erin on the track and said good morning. She asked about the stair race and so I stopped (fully intending to walk a lap or two and then get back at it) and walked with her. Well, about an hour or more later I'd had an incredible conversation with Erin and I just walked the whole time. It was a great day, but in 2 hours I only ran 1.5 miles...well, that was awfully slow :) I was moving the whole time and really needed the pick me up for my brain, so I'll call it successful despite not quite starting the week off with the right mileage.

Typical Tuesday Ten with the Newtons. Had a good group and Kim even joined us! I stayed stronger than normal on the hills, but was still dragging behind. Except for Jerry. He was hurting really badly and you could tell :( I thought he'd cut it super short due to his injury not losening up, but he perservered!

The finishing miles were good too. Kim and I chased each other for quite some time and I loved the extra push it gave me to finish strong.

1:20:07 - 7:56 AP splits: 8:32, 8:15, 8:39, 8:52, 7:38, 8:01, 7:34, 7:18, 7:04, 7:24, 7:13 last .15

Then, I went home and slept :) no more gym for the day!

I wimped out of speed work last week so I decided to man up and do it this week. I told the kids I'd take them downtown to swim at the hotel if they got their stuff done and I wanted to go to Trader Joe's so I figured I'd better run early. I recruited Amy to do speed work on the road with me. Mile repeats with 1/2 mile recovery.

Warmed up 2 miles then as the uphill started, so did the tempo: 7:17 - wow, incredible for me on an uphill. The next one was all gentle downhill: 6:35. Third mile was a mix of downhill/flat/gentle uphill: 6:53. The last repeat I knew was going to suck rocks, all uphill - well, the last .1 we got to go downhill, but at that point it hardly counts: I think it was around a 7:40. Amy had a 7:20 and I was about 15-20 seconds behind her. I'll still take it for a hard uphill push at the end of tempo workout.

Then we just cooled down to her house and finished off 8.5 with an AP of 7:50. Can't hardly complain about that.

Went home and slept and then it took the boys forever to get chores etc done, so we didn't get to go swimming, but I did get to see Craig and go to Trader Joe's. Worth it.

We had a good group for our Shaggy Mountain run even though we started a few minutes late waiting for everyone to get there. Poor Kelli is used to starting on time and was worried we'd all left her or she was in the wrong place. Thankfully she didn't leave (since my dumb phone wasn't getting texts, although I didn't know it!).

Kelli was nice and hung slow with me on the uphill. My legs were toast. I even walked a couple of the uphills which isn't my regular anymore. Speedwork sucked the life out of them! 

I love Shaggy Mountain and the course didn't disappoint and the company was even better than normal. So, a slower 1:12:28 AP: 8:50 for the course wasn't a horrible thing. I was still able to hit low/mid 7's on the way down, so no complaints from this downhill runner :)

Went back to bed and just slept...no gym for me. I think I'm getting lazy with off track time.

After dropping Adam off at pre-school I headed out on a ride with Heidi. First group bike ride of the season! I don't know why my garmin didn't download the data, but it didn't. I'm pretty sure it was around 21 miles. To the end of MVC and then up Rose Canyon. Only problem? I got a flat on the way home. It wasn't bad, so I tried riding down the canyon. It deflated VERY quickly. I stopped and just pumped it up instead of changing it. It barely lasted until home, but I was able to pick up Adam on time from pre-school...the sacrifices we make :)

Gym again so I could sleep in, well kind of. Craig finally came home! He got home at midnight then had to work for 2 hours...ugh. Finally I gave up waiting for him and went to bed. Luckily he wasn't too far behind me and I got to enjoy going to bed with my husband for once this month, because he left at 9AM for China. The life of a work widow. So, since I wanted to spend time with him, I stayed home until he left.

That got me to the gym at 9:40...a little late :) Adam got to do 15 minutes of his big kids class and I got 2 miles in before Amy got there at 10:00. We then did another 2 together on the track and 2 on the TM. I finished the two on the TM in 17:00, so a nice 8:30AP. No complaints.

After saying goodbye to Amy I went and did weights. Tried to burn my arms out and did some core and squats to break it up. Oh man! My butt and inner thighs were screaming from the few squats I did...I think I have some work to do there. My arms were shaky, but never got sore, I don't know if that is a good sign or not. I want strong arms! Picked up Adam and headed home for a restful afternoon.

Then my nephew wanted to go hiking so I decided to explore up South Mountain! It was only 2.5 miles one way, but a GREAT vert climb....especially with a near 4 year old on your back. Holy Moly. I was excited I finally got to the top of a mountain I've stared at for the past 8 years of living here. Highest peak in Herriman.

Today was NOT my day. It took me until 9 or 10PM to decide what to do. Lauren was doing baptisms for the dead and needed to be at the church at 6:30AM and the runs I was deciding between were at 6, 7 and 9ish. Only problem with the 9ish was Lauren also wanted to go to her friend's mother's funeral that died unexpectedly Sunday. That meant I needed to be home and ready to leave by 11:00. Oh the dreary life of a responsible adult! To top it off my heart just wasn't in running. Friday had been hard and I didn't really want to, Saturday was just worse.

I decided to do the 6AM run, but that meant leaving Lauren high and dry to walk in the dark to the church. I contacted a leader to pick her up, but it wasn't until 6:05 that I got a response! Talk about mommy guilt :/ Then since Lauren and Craig were gone I had to lean on my nephew to be able to help the boys if needed before Lauren or I got home. So with that all in play I figured the earlier I get home the better and the 6:00 run was close to me and earliest.

My heart just wasn't there. I always have a bad depressed day after Craig leaves, this was just unfortunately it. I was bad company. I didn't want to talk. I had nothing to talk about. Running wasn't making me feel better - I suck at running. Seriously. I hate constantly being in the back of the group lately and sucking it up. I was in the back again having a pity party and poor Amy was stuck with me since she was the driving force behind me being there. I finally got moving and took off on the little bit of downhill and flat, but guess what?!? by the time the hill came I was at the back again. Yup. I suck. I'm just getting tired of it. Kimberly was nice and tried to run and chat with me, but I just wasn't in the mood. Just get the damn run over with please. I wanted to be at home in bed. I didn't want to run. I wanted to eat and have a pity party. Running wasn't changing it.

I felt bad because there were a lot of new people I really liked and wanted to chat with (in hindsight) but I just didn't have it in me. I hung out at the back like the runner I'm intended to be and just did my own thing silently. I was NOT good company. I was having a bad day, to say the least. The new people probably think I'm the grumpiest person they've ever met. Oh well. Hopefully I can change first impressions.

One of the girls had done water stops and Jerry rode the bike behind us all and it was an incredibly well planned run! I was NOT doing their 5 tempo miles at the end and was just going to run the same pace, but Amy said she was fine with 13 miles and so we just looped back to Danielle's house and called it quits. That meant forfeiting the donuts and chocolate milk, but fortunately I wasn't in the mood to socialize so I didn't feel bad leaving them.

I came home showered, got ready for the funeral and slept until I needed to get my dress on and go. Boys were all still asleep and it was actually a pretty normal Saturday morning (as far as I'd assume, I'm not usually around Saturday morning). Luckily, I got my waffle luv waffle after the funeral and just pulled my head out and felt a little better by the end of the day. I still have runners guilt over getting out of the last 5 miles, but I'm dealing with it.

TT: 1:52:00 AP: 8:16 splits: 8:23, 8:17, 8:36, 8:43, 8:57, 8:14, 7:51, 8:41, 8:53, 7:11, 7:48, 7:44, 8:06, 8:11 (last .5)