So tired today. But the late summer, early autumn morning crispness brings a renwed sence of wonder. The change of the seasons always affects me, and none so much as autumn. It's my favorite season. But I am being punished for every time I ever made fun of people with hypoglycemia. I always said that hypoglycemia was for anorexics who were just making excuses for why they were weak and nervous when what they really needed was to just eat something. I have been living with this for at least 18 months, and it's gotten progressively worse. I get to see the endocrinologist next week to see why my liver's not working, or if my pancreas is overloading my body with insulin. In retrospect, I muscled through so much exhaustion I can't believe I could do it. It just proves mind over matter. But now I know there is something legitimately wrong with my storage and use of complex carbs/sugars I can trace back almost every episode to this condition. I also always thought I was so tired and foggy during the day because I was doing too much running. I can't believe how judgemental I am and how I am now paying for it. I just hope I can learn how to adjust my eating to make running a non life threatening event. |