Failure makes me work even harder.

AM- 3 miles E.

PM- 4x1600m (5:07 pace): It was really windy today so hitting my times was harder, because it was harder to keep my feet quick.  The first one I did really well on and felt fine (5:06).  The second one was a little harder and the wind made it harder to push (5:09).  The third one the first lap I tried to push the pace for mike on the first lap, because it looked like the wind was really affecting him and I should have went faster the third lap, it was a 1:21 about 4 seconds slow and where I lost most of my time (5:10).  The last one I tried to pull it back together and I really stayed with mike and byron until the last lap just so I'd hit my time and not ruin workouts later in the week (5:07).

Overall- I was really pleased.  I was only over for two (2nd- 2 seconds over 3rd- 3 seconds over) and the wind was blowing REALLY hard, so I was very pleased.  Now I just have to translate my positive workouts (that I've been nailing each one for a long time) into solid racing!  I just need to shift gears!  Excited for Panther Relays and Dixie invite! 

AM- 3 miles E.

PM- Coe Workout (yes, Sebastian Coe did do this!). workout (goal times): 100m (17.5 sec), 110m (18.7 sec), 120m (19.9 sec), 130m (21.1 sec), 140m (22.3 sec), 150m (23.5 sec), 160m (24.7 sec), 170m (25.9 sec), 180m (27.1 sec), 190m (28.3 sec), 200m (29.5 sec) equal distance recovery on all of them.  My times were a little slow for me, because the only 400m I could put in (for the split calculator) was a little slow because it was after running the 1600 and 3200 in the same day and sitting in the sun.  Anyway, the workout I was way under for the whole thing except for the last two I hit right on (exactly on..like 28.3 & 29.5).  I liked this workout, because it wasn't way hard but it definitely helped me realize that I have some speed in my legs and I just got to trust it! 

AM- 3 miles E.

PM- Panther Relays- 1600m (in the Distance Medley)- 4:58.  I wasn't feeling good today and I was so far behind everyone by the time it got to me that I didn't have motivation to run faster.  800m- 2:18...really slow.            400m- 1:02...I felt slow the last 200m.

Overall-  I was really tired.  I just didn't get moving.  Oh well it was not a big meet. 

AM- 3 miles E.

PM- 4 miles w/ 4x200m.  I felt really good on the 200's. 

AM- 3 miles E with the team.

PM- RACE.  I started out and I was feeling really good! I was right behind Mike (both of them...kinda weird). (1:04)  The second lap I just started not trusting myself (1:10).  The third lap was terrible.  Right after Abel and Cedar kid passed me I just didn't believe...I don't know why I was so slow! (1:15)  The last lap was alright but I was just going in and wasn't as fast as I needed (1:11)  

Overall- 4:40.9. I was super disappointed...Coach yelled at me after...I guess PRing is alright but not if your PR sucks...

3200m- 10:10 I started out well, but I gave up for some reason...I want to believe in myself SOO badly, but it feels fake and forced when I do try...It was hard after because Coach wouldn't even talk to me...It's hard to not be frustrated when everyone around me is forcing me to be motivated and it feels like I have to please them or I am disappointing them in this case...I want to please myself!  You don't think I am not disappointed??  You don't think I give a bigger crap than you??  Of course I do! Huh...I know I can get it if I just believe...I just don't know how to believe without forcing it and faking it...because fake believe has done me no good when the going gets tough in a race...I believe in workouts so why in the world can't I do it in RACES!!!???  

800m- 1st lap (1:02) second lap (1:09).  Time- 2:11.  I hadn't gotten over my other race yet.