Believe to Achieve

sadly i am no longer a runner...whatever this is better change its course soon.   Same thing but worse that has been happening to me over the years, sure hope its hormonal and not some autoimmune disease, least of all MS.  crossing fingers...  it is hard to describe...my muscles just won't move well, I walk funny and my legs are going numb and burning in pain down my spine and to my feet.  so ready for this "flare" to end as Kim calls these cases that happen to me.  This just happens to be the worst one in a long time.  Crap-ola!!  Be thankful you all can run!!  I am happy for you all. 

...at the Drs.  Why even when there is NO one in the waiting area does it take 55 minutes to get in for your appointment (or more)?  At least I felt very good about this NNP that works for a great OB/GYN.  Basically-- I am getting some lab work -- estrogen and progesterone (which she thinks is probably nonexistent and when it is low it makes you feel like crap), thyroid, iron, and vitamin B12 levels (she is worried the numbness/tingling in my legs is from folic acid or vitamin def. or anemia).  Also, it occured to me to mention my visit 3 1/2 years ago to the vein center for pain in my legs--  I forgot I was diagnosed with Pelvic Veinous Congestion and they told me I should have "coils" placed in my veins there to destroy them and hence not have the pain anymore.  Oooops...I had put this back in my brain as I didn't want coils in my veins via my carotid artery.  But now....(I need a reevaluation first, and she thinks it is most likely A lot worse), I am faced the question to have this procedure.  I am not sure how much I believe it but I guess it makes sense since I have a lot of uterine varices (varicose veins) and intense leg and back pain.  I can't get in there until the 21st. 

AP 9:22.   Joints all hurt especially left pelvis and then once again the sciatic nerve.  Bleep bleep bleep.  I ran with Troy.  First mile a trot at 10:19.  Nice fall weather and still it hurt more and more.....swimming later then biking if I can muster the energy.  I am so fatigued and my body even 5 hours later feels bruised all over.  What kind of deal is this?  At least I managed to clean the toilets and sinks and vacuum the upstairs.  I hate when I make no change in the world sitting around without progress.  BTW I got online to view previous labs to kind of see what to look for in my new ones...it turns out the labs are back.  I have borderline anemia, just below normal and my progesterone is nonexistent (she didn't get a estrogen level, it was zilch last time) and  my DHEA (the master hormone that makes all the others especially cortisol--stress hormone and progesterone) is VERY low.  I haven't heard back from her after calling the office to get in earlier than two weeks from now since my labs were back lickidy split.  She thought they would take a few days.  Anyone taken a DHEA supplement?  I hear women who are low and take it feel much better after two weeks.  Oh and my vitamin B 12 was low as well.  So I guess I was falling apart at the seems.  NEWSFLASH---OH my freaking heck I am also Vitamin D deficient.  That lab value just popped up!!!!  That is olden days deficiency!!!!  either its absorption (more probable) or intake problem.  I never took supplements while pregnant or afterwards.  Took them for about a month last Summer....hey I felt better for a while..when Dr. Remington, the anti-yeast Dr. put me on them and the diet to avoid all yeast and take a yeast killer.  This NNP also believes yeast is to blame for a lot of autoimmunity and disease and advised me to take a yeast cleanse and take probiotics (taking them now sporadically). 

Busy day at work.  Pelvis and bone pain.  What do I do?  I am just trying to brave it and take supplements and wait to hear about the rest of the studies. 

How can I go this long without running?  I got up at 3 am.  Can't sleep well.  Too early for a run alone.  Drifted back to sleep briefly at 430am.  Got out to run by 6:15am.  Ran my 1.4 mile loop over 5 times.  AP for 8 = 8:11.  Need new shoes.  Ordering them today.  First mile 9:31, last mile 7:04.  Pain not going to let up.  Waiting for supplements to kick in.  Blood levels for Vitamin D can get back up at two days but calcium in the bones takes 10 days.  I sure hope this is why I have so much pain.  I keep getting shooting pains down my legs and also down my arms.  So ridiculous.  Ran 2 mile cooldown, 1.75 miles were barefoot mostly on the grass around by my church.  It felt so invigorating and way less stress on my joints.  The dew on the grass froze my feet however but still I kept on but really was difficult hitting the pavement with frozen feet.  AP  for those two 9:15.  Slowed on the pavement.  Ouch.  Need thick socks next time on the road barefoot.  Grass running UnderRated.  Really quite enjoyed it.