Believe to Achieve

saucony 5s.    really am I running another time trial today?  so get freaked out by the track but trying to train my brain to "cool" it.  Said a prayer-- "please help me run better laps 7-11".   I don't think God cares so much about my running but how I act while running and when running with others.  Am I a good sport?  do I lift others?  I hope so.  And if I am prepared and have tried my best, I can be blessed.  Today was that day.  And to God I am thankful!!  Warmed up to the track from my house including two laps around the track (AMEN no sprinklers on!!  Was worried that at any minute they would turn on and cause me to think about them every lap, they were on elsewhere around the track).  It was cooler today then all summer long.  My arms and fingers were chilled.  Oh well, better than heat that is for sure!!  There was also a noticed headwind every lap heading north.  The track is tucked by the school and the direction I was running gave me less of the advantage.  As I rounded the home stretch of each lap-- if I had a tailwind it was balanced out by the sudden 10 degree increase in temp, yucky!!  The wind was cooling things down.  Thank you wind!!  I honestly am very happy with this time trial.  The nausea didn't come on until lap 9.5 when usually it hits a lap or so earlier.  I didn't eat anything before this run nor any energy supplements ( I run without caffeine all the time, no stimulants).  I do have to comment that I definitely feel disadvantaged with my running friends that are not just younger but that take 5 hour energy drinks before some workouts and always at races.  However my heart can't take that strain.  HR would sore out of control.    At SG last year I thought "what the heck at mile 13, I can handle this one chocolate gu....then out of nowhere HR over 200 or something around mile 15 and I was running downhill-- granted it was roasty toasty as the elevation dropped-- but I am not doing that mistake again even if I love chocolate!!!  OKAY already I will get on with my splits for today---  very consistent, I think I see a pattern in the numbers :D  -- 1:33:08, 1:36:00, 1:35:76, 1:35:65 (6:20:49, first mile), 1:36:22, 1:36:07, 1:37:39, 1:37:67 (12:47:84 for two miles, 6:27:35 for the second mile), 1:37:33, 1:38:41, 1:38:09, 1:34:05 (19:15:72 for three miles 6:27:92). GOTTA LOVE A STOPWATCH for accuracy : D.    My hands were quite cold so I fumbled stopping my watch so I am thinking that last lap was closer to 1:33 but I can't be sure I was in a mode there at the end to just get it done and I was very surprised to see my time. I tried thinking out some math while I ran each lap but that never works-- I honestly thought I was coming in at 19:24 or so.  BUT 19:15 was SOOOOO very nice to see  :D.  It didn't feel any harder than a 8days ago so that is a good sign.   I just had to mentally tell myself to speed up laps 7-11 when I wanted to naturally slow down.  I am no track star and the track just messes with my head.  There were two walkers on the track (outside lanes, thankfully) and one other runner who I briefly informed I was running a 3 mile time trial-- he skirted over after he saw me coming and remained in the second lane the rest of his run and even cheered me on at lap 10.  I nodded my head and gave a thumbs up.  Not an easy time to say anywords.   I am thankful that this old body can move despite the very tight feeling in my pelvis-- like it is stuck and my turnover has to be quick but stride is stuck where it is at.  3 mile time trial 19 seconds faster than 8 days ago!!!  19 seconds!!!  YIPPEE.  NOW I am afraid of failure-- like how in the world can I will myself to run even faster next time?????  what if I am not faster?  FAILURE thoughts roam thru my head.  I should quit while I am ahead.  Luckily it is still a week a way.  I can try and think of other things right now--- like my 18 mile I have planned up AF canyon on Friday.  AHHHHHHhhhhh should be wonderful!!!