Believe to Achieve

Got up at 445am and said "what the heck"  maybe I can do that last 20 miler and see if I am in or out.  Despite the difficulty of even PRing I must run SGM to stay in for the 10 year club and giving my number to someone would not be honest to myself or the marathon....so I must put up a big fight.  Did anyone think less from me?  I  just started running that 1.4 mile hilly loop I did Saturday and figured I would go and go until 20 (I stayed on this course until 14 miles then I added a bigger  hillier loop in sections).  At mile 14 my pelvis really acted up intensely as the pace picked up and the fatigue set in.  Cardio-wise I was great but man this pain is indescribable, throbbing nerve pain down deep in my buttocks and my pelvis feels like I am about to have a baby---burning, pressure.  Geez.  It throws off my form and my concentration but I perservered.  I never stopped my garmin as I picked up my water, gatorade and two go-gurts (I ran out of gu, what to do?).   Just bending to pick up the water was quite the feet.  I had no flexibility and it was quite painful.  I am so masochistic.  But I just had to.  This was my last attempt to put me in shape and its all taper from here.  No big work outs.  Just eazy/breezy from here on out and lots of pampering.  Massages, ice baths, supplements, good diet and I should be all set.  This was good for me to not stop my watch so  I wasn't cheating on pace.  Goal was to hopefully get to an AP of 8 or so.  AP was 7:58.  That was nice.  My miles were  7 above 8 and 13 below.  That seems respectable enough in all this pain.  Even as I sit here my pelvis and buttocks are throbbing.   Splits:  9:03, 8:35, 8:28, 8:18, 8:04, 8:01, 8:07, 7:59, 7:41, 7:45, 7:41, 7:45, 7:44, 7:43, 7:38, 7:55, 7:49, 7:45, 7:52, 7:30 (UPHILL POWER PUMPING!!)  BTW I am fully aware of how INSANE I AM.   I should not even be running, but SGM comes once a year and its here!!      Second of all-- my Dr's office called me yesterday and asked me to come in this morning to review my lab work.  Again--drastically low on Vit D and B12 (she said its due to age and poor absorption and stresses on my body...certainly NOT running : D).  Also drastically low on progesterone--- practically non-existent and severely low on DHEA the hormone that if low my body won't be able to handle stress well, meaning I am headed for the disease pathway if  I don't change.  Slightly anemic and amazingly thryoid intact.  Phew!!  Don't want to be popping too many pills.  Got all the prescriptions and have actually started taking Vit D on Friday but started a Calcium and B12 supplement that I started reacting to so I am glad she called and put me on a better one for better absorption.  Good Earth will refund me, YAY!!  She wanted to give me a Vit B 12 shot since I am so low but I may be allergic to the aluminum in the shot.  Don't want to take a chance.  Apparently all my allergies are due to immune dysfunction most likely due to my deficiencies.  I am on my way to healthier me.  She told me I would not get osteoporosis if I get my Vit D level up.  My bone scan just showed that I was at medium risk which means I am osteopenic (low bone density) but too low for my age.  My mom has osteoporosis.  So there it all is...a HUGE nut shell.  I am hoping somehow my back pain is related to the ADRENAL fatigue (DHEA) and not disk related.  It is listed as a common symptom along with fatigue, sleeplessness, lightheadness, and headaches.