am- So we warmed up for a bit and then jumped on the track. I wanted to do better than yesterday so I went up front with Andrew behind Preston, Bronco, and Spencer who were ahead by a bit. I was going and then I started losing my focus and hurting and just feeling empty. I don't know what was happening. Soon, my form was crap and I was falling off quick. It felt like I was like dragging my feet and dropping my hips bad. Coach kept yelling to bring my hips up and finally I tried to finish strong the last 3 laps. I was 200m to go when the Bushars and my parents yelled at me to at least get the dude ahead of me. I got him but then got passed by two dudes and I just crossed the finish line and cried. I thought, "What happened to me? Why did I feel so defeated?" I went to my stuff on the field and sat and just cried for 5 minutes. I gotta just put this weekend behind me. I wasnt diligent with running during Spring break and so it came back and kicked me in the butt. I now know that I have to just have to get real serious now. I love running and I love the team, and I cant let them down like this again. I went home and my dad gave me some exercises to work on my hips so I can perform my best. Once I can get that down and just get my confidence back I will be ready to perform amazingly.
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