AM-Easy five miles at 7:30-8 min/pace on the treadmill. Had some thoughts this morning on survivorship. All this happened while I feeling rather depressed and weak in spirit. I listened to an account of a man who had a very similar situation where he had lost a lucrative career and had to take a janitorial position to get by. He rose at 4 am every morning and started his morning with prayer and then afterward would search the internet for leads and opportunities. But instead of just hanging in his own depressed and sorry state he would go out to his new office which happened to be his truck. He would then initiate action by calling and following up on those leads. Then there was the account of the NFL players who were lost at sea. Two of them removed their life jackets within two hours of the accident and let themselves drift away... They of course perished into the depths. You would think two big tough guys in the NFL could and would survive anything right? Not so. True strength and toughness I believe lies not in one's size, talent or looks, but rather in one's heart and soul. After meditating on this for some time I realized that I was not as weak and powerless as I had believed. I was doing most of the things I needed to do to survive, however I was not thriving.. I had not made the decision to turn the switch on and start moving forward again. Instead I was just drifting and waiting for whatever fell on me. I have always believed that you must accept whatever happens to you and ultimately accept God's will for whatever happens. But when you see a ship at sea, you paddle towards it and not wave it on by saying God will provide. Time to get moving.
Darkhorse out...
PM-Aerobic resistance run with 8 miles progressive pace increasing at 80-85% mhr. No time taken, just heart rate and effort. 10 miles total total with stretching and warm/cold bath soaks. Recovery run for tomorrow. Darkhorse out. | 