Im writing this a few weeks late. I didnt really plan on doing more than 1 race this spring but shoutout to my old coach for telling me "you may want to think about it". Lowkey that was all I needed.
The meet was fun, chill, I found Jessica and hung out with the weber st boys. I warmed up over to the basketball stadium and back. Watched my homie dallin run a 400 and chatted with him for a bit. The weather was nearly perfect, slight wind, warm and sunny.
800m 2nd heat 5:55pm
after spiking up I did a few strides on the field while they ran the first heat. felt good not nervous, ready to race. my boy brennan from utah state won with a blazing 1:52 or something. they lined me up in lane 7. this was the first time I ever got my own lane so that was lit. I started good, around the first turn there was 3 guys in front of me, good position for me. Stuck in for till about 350 and a few guys started to slow up a bit so I moved around them on the straight away and stuck right on the kid from uvu. I kinda wanted to make a move later in the race and finish with a faster kick but it never ends up that way lol. I passed the uvu guy at the start of the second lap and didnt look back. grinded out the last 300. shoutout to my sister for cheering me around the 200 I felt good. strong finish for me I was straight balls out. I knew it was a quick time for me so when I crossed the line I tried to turn around to see the time and I rolled my ankle pretty good lol. saw the 155 and gave myself a little fist pump because that was sick as heck I was so happy. I went and said thanks to the homies who cheered for me.
This PR meant alot to me. a 1:55.75 isnt the fastest time in the world but I did it by myself. and off of only like 20 miles a week max with my training. the past few months have been a grind with school and still running took a lot of motivation. throughout the last year i started running with the intent to tryout for utah states track team but even after they made it clear I wouldnt get the opportunity i still wanted to race. it was all self motivation, honestly it wouldnt have made a difference to anyone else in the world if i just gave up. it doesnt really even make a difference to anyone that I prd, i still dont have a spot on the team but that doesnt matter i did this for myself. woke up everyday by myself. did workouts alone on the track. entered myself into a couple meets unnattached. that took a lot of confidence and I was able to prove to myself that I can still compete and improve and that was important to me for some reason idk. it has helped me personally to find some character and to keep grinding with everything I do, with no attention, no coach, no people telling me what to do, no lights on me and no crowds supporting me. most of my friends didnt even know I was still running. you gotta get up everyday and chase your dreams even if they might never happen. im proud of myself.