AM: 10 miles. Woke up very early and got the run out of the way. The inspections on the new house are happening today, and a meeting about our new, shiny mortgage is this afternoon. Somehow I'm working today too.
Lots of thoughts rolling around this morning on the run. I'm uncomfortable with the house purchase. It will be nice when we're settled in, no doubt. But it's big, and expensive, and I am very much a less-is-more type of guy.
I don't own nice things. I drive a 2004 Civic without power locks. I don't like shopping. It's not that I'm some ascetic purist - I just don't have any interest.
With the house though, I'm pulled in by the thought of a haven for my family, particularly my daughters. My current situation is not ghetto, but it's not a place where I'm comfortable with them being outside, or someday riding bikes, without supervision. That's pretty much what it boils down to.
I've been working hard on all the moving parts involved in that transaction for the past month, and running has taken a back seat. I'm OK with that, but I'm also conflicted there. There is a local track meet tomorrow night I can't even decide on.
Behind all of this, moving is a clean slate, and I have been feeling for months, if not years now, that I need a fresh start. I think I'm a solid B student in the game of life right now- as a father, husband, employee, runner, friend. Sadly, as a son and brother, I probably score even lower. The point is, I've been comfortable with doing pretty well, but I think there is a lot I could do better, if I can find my way to it. That gets into motivation and focus, which is another thing I want to think and write about, but this is already long enough.
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