I'm not crazy...I'm just bored!!

I hit a nice little loop around Draper. I guess I was just feeling good, because my AP ended up at 7:58. I guess I shouldn't complain about that! 

I did have a minor breakdown this weekend. Sunday was a bad day. Sat on the couch and ate myself sick. I never even went to bed. Just napped on the couch from 2-5 when I had to then wake up and get kids to piano at 5:30AM. Man alive, I hate depression. It grabs you and pulls you down into the dark abyss and it is SO hard to climb out. I never even changed my clothes...I was in my dress all day and night. Monday before my run Marci called and I talked to her for much too long and vented about a couple things and honestly, it made me feel a lot better. So between that and all the sugar I consumed, I guess I was just primed for a good run! 

The first time in FOREVER I've run the loop under 1:25...I was 1:23:xx

Mandy dragged me on the uphill, and it was nice to work to keep up with her and not let her gap me. It was hard, but dang it, I did it!! It put all my uphill miles under 9mm. Then, I kind of got burnt out on the downhill and lagged behind, but I was still fast enough to finish with my 8:14AP. I truly haven't run that far, that fast in I don't know how long...

I then made it to lift class for arms, late, but I still got it all in. I'm just really unmotivated to go to the gym since Cyle left. It honestly kind of sucks now.

I was lazy and did a whole lot of nothing today...nothing! Babysitting can get exhausting :) 

Shaggy Mountain. Another 1:11 loop, which is good an consistent for me lately. I wish I could hit those sub 1:10's on this route again, but meh...whatever. I'm slow now, slow and broken...

I then did half of boxing and legs class. I thought maybe I'd like Nikki's class, but the lack of technique and REAL boxing skills just annoys me. Legs class was good. 

I finished the day by playing 2 hours of competitive volleyball. My pair of shoes ripped right across the top on a serve! It was hillarious attempting to tape it up so I could serve and still have traction. We did okay...better than last week, but not up to snuff for some of the ladies. I can't help it that I suck!

I did boxing class (ugh...new teacher) and it might as well have been an aerobics class. She didn't know jab, cross or proper foot work or anything. Yeah, it was a good workout, but if I want aerobics classes I'll go somewhere cheaper. I WANT BOXING! Sigh...

Then I did Peggy's arm class. Always a good workout. But, still not power lifting with Cyle. 

We did Lisa's running bridal shower this morning! It was a ton of fun. We met at Ruth's diner at 6AM, ran for 2 hours and then had breakfast. They sat us outside so we could all sit together and we had heaters, but it was still just chilly cold when you're all wet from sweat. Aside from that, the company was fantastic and the occasion was spectacular! I can't wait for her wedding this next weekend. 

I don't know if it is just my depression hang over (which has lasted since more than last week) or mother's day or both...but I didn't want to get out and do anything. Plus, David had an early dentist appointment, then I had to take him to school, then I had to do Adam's star student poster and then get him to school, then do a showing, then do a massage then do afternoon carpool. So, basically I didn't make time early to do anything. I guess I'm just losing motivation. 

Another decent time on the loop of 1:23:xx, but my AP was 8:16, not 8:14 so it was a little slower and I'm 90% sure it was the uphill. I had 2 miles just over 9mm which is because Mandy wasn't pushing me. She was having a crappy, tired day herself and so we both just kind of wallowed in misery instead of killing each other on the run :) But, I liked it that way!

I kept up much better with Mel and Chad, but maybe they were just running slower. Which is probably the case! Then at the end Mel had made cupcakes for Dave and Chad's birthday so we partook of her delightful death by chocolate cupcakes! The girl bakes well. 

I then picked up Taylee for babysitting today and well, this darn motivation and losing Cyle at boxing and depression just set in. I was ready and dressed for the gym. I could've made it to both boxing and lift, but I didn't. I slept with the baby in my arms. I could've done a myriad of things I've wanted to get done at home...but I slept. Sigh. 

If anyone, I mean ANYONE can give me a goal for me to shoot for, something to attain to...please help me! I feel like I'm falling hard and fast. I've done all the goals I've set out to do. Granted, I haven't updated my info, but I did a full IM last year, but really I feel like I've done all there is to do. So, I LOVE running, but I want to find purpose (other than being with friends) again. Because I can't really keep up with any of them anyway. So it makes me sad and crazy. Then my boxing dreams are crushed and gone with Cyle leaving and no one decent to replace him. The techers teaching now know less than I do. I don't like people like that teaching me. If I don't want to aspire to be or have what you have...then I don't want you teaching or coaching me. It is just that simple. sigh...motivation? anyone? anyone? Some goal...something?

I was supposed to meet Melanie at the Rec center for a nice early run before I had the baby all day, but she needed her sleep :) She missed her alarm and didn't wake up, but it got me out of the house and moving. So I listened to conference and ran the 6+ mile loop alone. I was slow on the uphill, but kept a decent enough pace on the downhill to round things out.

AP: 8:33 - 9:08, 9:16, 9:20, 9:23, 7:37, 7:07, 6:51 (last .35) 

Shaggy Mountain with Chad. Melanie cancelled at 4AM, so we were stuck on a date run, but it was nice to have company. I didn't completely suck it up, but my watch died at the top of mother hill...so I had Chad tell me what his time was at and then his finish time. So, I added 20:28 seconds to my watch time and I was at 1:10:58!! My goal was under 1:11, because I've been 1:11:30 the past couple weeks. So, I did it! My downhill miles weren't super fast, but my uphill miles were a little faster than usual. I'll take it!

I sat on the couch all morning, but finally at the last minute motivated myself to go out and run. I wanted to feel better for the wedding dinner. 

I ran a 6 mile loop in 50:20...not too shabby for just a leisurely run. It was HOT! I forget what running in 80 degree heat and sun does to you. 

Pacing 1:45 at Vigor. I got there late, but at least got on a bus and had good friends to chat with. Other than forgetting to register for SGM by yesterday at midnight, it was a great morning. 

Met Lisa at the top and since it was her wedding day, Laura brought all of us running with her a red flower to wear. It was fun! She ran with me until mile 11 when I had to slow down to hit my pace time. Finished right on time and with nice compliments from some great people about my pacing. 

We walked back on the course and then ran Laura and Cahty in, which is always fun! Came home, grabbed a nap, got some stuff done and headed off to Lisa's amazing wedding!

Met Karolynn Kay at daybreak lake to have a nice morning run. She is a wonderful person and I'm glad I made the connection with her. I was late (surprised???) and so we did almost 5 together, so I went out to round out the miles, but just got enjoying the road and so I ran to the top of 10200S so that I could run back DOWN! It was nice and I finished with exactly 7 miles. I love it when things work out well.

AP: 8:24 splits: 8:27, 8:15, 8:33, 8:38, 8:47, 8:44, 7:26

Regular Tuesday 10. Met Chad, Danielle and Mike and we ran the loop together.  I did a pretty normal time for myself, as of late, at 1:23:23 8:15 AP. I'd like to get back to 1:20-1:21 on a regular basis. Slowly but surely, right??? 

It was great to have good company and we chatted pretty much the enitre way! I didn't get left behind :) I always had someone with me. That is just exactly what makes me happy!!

I went on a nice long bike ride with Kelli. It is nice to switch things up sometimes and with Spudman coming I need to get out on the bike more!! A nice 15MPH average pace and we weren't pushing, just a nice chatty ride. I loved it!!

The newtons all ditched me for Shaggy Mountain, so I loaded up the baby and met Kelli at 8:30 and did a stroller run. She was wonderfully patient with my slow pace pushing the stroller into the wind. At least Taylee is only 13 pounds and not Adam's 40!!

AP: 9:00 splits: 8:55, 8:19, 8:38, 9:07, 8:47, 9:14, 9:11, 9:30, 9:21

Loaded up the stroller again and met a good friend Christine Scott on the old Urban trail loop. We just went out and back on the canal road and I ended up with 2 flat tires half way through...so it wasn't easy for me, but she was wonderfully patient with me too! We had a great run and chat and I don't regret a second of it! Hopefully these 15 miles of pushing a stroller will help me tomorrow when I'm pushing Reese for 26.2 miles....

Rainy day pushing Reese. A wonderful opportunity and great time spent with Marci.

I wrote my report and it didn't get saved...I'm being lazy now.

Pacing TOSH with Marci (4:30 group)

lots of new friends, course was .2 short on my garmin and no mile markers...so we finished 2 minutes early, which would've been perfect pacing if the course was accurate to our garmins.

Memorial day celebration ride with Kelli. Down to Cedar Fort and back. A good push, but not enough to kill my legs. Then the afternoon I spent rock climbing in rock canyon with Craig for his birthday yesterday. 

Tuesday Ten with the Newtons