I am putting my better happy entry up here above my cry baby entry below ;) Well, I finally called Michelle after typing the below epic sob story. She is such a sweetheart. She came right over a dragged my sorry sad whiny bum out on a GREAT bike ride. It worked miracles for me :) THANK YOU MICHELLE, if I already wasn't planning on loving you forever, I am now :D I have a call in to Brady to see if the elliptical & a spin class is OK. If it is, I may crash Michelle's indoor workouts and take over her elliptical. My other neighbor has one too. I am going to ask in church if anyone has a stationary bike they are not using that I could borrow for the super cold days. I feel much better. I am working out my cross training plan so I can keep my booty from getting too far out of shape. Oh and the BEST news this morning was when I got home from my bike ride I weighed 169.8. I haven't seen the 160's since at least 1988 ;D Woo hoo!
Sorry, this is LONG…
Bad news at the doctors office. What I had suspected to be wrong is wrong :( Since my hip wasn't healing like Brady thought it should, he grilled me more in depth about my hip. He had me draw all over showing where the pain is. I look like my three year old loose with a sharpie. He did a different, more in depth exam. As it turns out, for various reasons, I have TONS of scar tissue all over in the muscles in my hips, buttocks and on my mid right quad. I am not sure why this wasn't noticed before, but I am guessing that from what I had said before, and from his assumptions about that, and the ITB pain, he treated me thinking it was something else and now that that assumption is proved wrong, he took a closer look. The adhesions and/or scar tissue on my quad is pretty bad and my hip is not any better. My little butt head of a piriformis, which has been bothering me for 5 years, is a disaster. It seems the cause of this problem is me ignoring the issue for too long in my hip, thus the muscles in my hip tried to heal themselves and created scar tissue, adhesions. The ITBS is because the hip has become so bound it caused a rotation in my leg that created issues for my ITB. The hip pain has been present for 2 years.
So, Brady did a lot more aggressive treatments yesterday (ie PAINFUL- 90 minutes worth- I should have shaved WAY more thoroughly ;). I have a myriad of things I need to do to work on the issues everyday. Running is out for a while, probably a long while. I can bike, yoga and swim. I am calling today about elliptical. When I left the office I wanted to call David, but he was in meetings, so I thought to call Michelle, but I knew I would just cry. In case you aren’t like me, when I cry, I can't talk, so when I call someone crying, they either hang up because they think no ones there or if they know it's me, they think someone died and I can't talk to correct them.
I think I am upset for so many reasons it's hard to even identify them. #1 why didn't we figure this out 2 visits ago? (I know medicine is an art and not perfect). #2 Why didn't I take care of this forever ago? But how was I supposed to know???? #3 this is going to cost MONEY :p. #4 I just want to run. #5 I HATE cross training, too complicated. #6 I am not even some great runner with any hopes of great things, how do I justify spending all of this time and money on something I am marginal at? (don’t get after me for #6, my #4 negates my #6)
I know this time will pass and I will heal and run again. We will figure out how to help my hips be healthy, but for today and maybe tomorrow, I am having a pity party L . I am going to work out a cross training rehab schedule, so I can focus on what I CAN do. That usually helps me. David is very supportive and when I said #6 last night, in hysterical sobs, he just said that it wasn’t true and that I needed to get myself all fixed up. (He hasn’t looked at the check book since the furnace guys left yesterday L )
Too much going on this week. I hope you all are having a GREAT day and the BEST weekend ever at St George! I wish I could be there to cheer you all in J .
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