I had to take 3 days off again, because I felt crappy after my 7 miler. It was obviously too much for me. I had lots of lung pain and the anxiety is back. I had kind of a rough 3 days mentally, and I have to thank the blog and all the nice people that stop by and leave comments. If it wasn't for this community, I would be tempted to just give up and stop running, at least temporarily. It's taking me much longer to recover than I expected, and I don't know when it will end. I just want to feel like my old self, but it's not happening! It's been 5 months, but I'm not back to normal.
So I tried again today, running very easy pace intentionally, and somewhat shorter. I hope I can get out at least 4 times this week. I felt okay on the run, kind of sluggish, because I was running so slowly. I don't generally feel good rhythm going slower than 9:30 pace. But I have to leave my pride at home, and try to get out consistently. I know that exercise is good for anxiety, so I'm trying. But if some lung pain is caused by running, it is very hard to say how much pain is from running, and how much is from all the anxiety (it can cause chest pain too!).
Total time: 42:12 (9:48 pace). | 