Running because I can!

I had a crazy busy day but managed to work in a run and a bike ride. My goal on the treadmill was to run 40 minutes and that is what I did. I walked the last .16 in after the 40 minutes ended.

Then I took my baby to his well child check that was a nightmare and I am glad it is over.  I cooked dinner and then rode 3 miles on the bike. (My husband bought me an  exercise bike this weekend) He got a good deal on ksl.  

I got on the treadmill today thinking I need to run three miles without stopping. After my first mile I thought I should push myself a little harder so I decided I was going to run it in 30 minutes.  Almost! 30.34 still a pr for me.  Then I kept on running and thought to myself  over and over "that which dose not kill me will only make me stronger"  I think I should make that my new blog title.   So I did it. I ran 4 miles with no walking and I did it in 41:00  another pr for me. I am a little sore but It feels good that I can talk myself through something that is not really that much fun and a little painful.   I keep waiting for the day that I just love running.  

I love sports wake boarding, biking, swimming, fishing, hiking.  I just wish running was as entertaining to me. Although I think the running will at least make me feel more comforatable doing the things I really love.  We have a jet boat and when other people come out with us, I always feel like everything is just bouncing around and flapping in the wind.  (very self consious in a bathing suit) I usually wear a shirt and shorts but that gets in the way when trying to wake board or knee board.  I got my pocket of my shorts caught on the side of the boat once(On the metal things on the front of the boat)  while getting in the water and got fliped around hit my head on the side of the boat and basically got my shorts ripped off.     

So I am hopeing that when boating season comes around I will feel more confident and maybe I will perform better without all my loose fitting long shorts on.   I will also be running outside by then so maybe just maybe I will love that to :)  

O Ya I am talking about my workout! After my treadmill i worked my abs over, and then changed a diaper in record time. Then I rode the bike for 25 minutes because that was all the time I had left.  

I did not sleep well last night! Somehow three kids ended up in my bed and I got pancaked.  I feel stiff and drained today. I made it to the gym and ran .25 and my muscles in legs were just hurting worse so I decided to walk at a fast pace that was still comfortable. I did 2 miles in 30 minutes and then I worked my abs.  I did a few leg weight with lower weight on them to try to strech a little and work the parts of my legs that are not sore. I did a few arm weights and then I rode the bike for 30 minutes.

I am having a hard time with the birth mom of this baby and the grandparents, so my mind was just not in it today. I just could not find my zone.  I got home and there was another message on my phone and now I am so angry I feel like I need to go back to the gym. I could probley run at this point.   

I felt so anxious I decided to try getting on my treadmill. I did another half mile and then decided I should just play with my kids or something.

I thought for a minute today that I was not going to go to the gym, but I made it.   I thought about doing something besides running and then decided I needed to give it my best.  I just felt soooo tired.  I ran the first mile and just made small goals to make it to the 4 mile mark (I finished running at 42:00) and then I ran just a little more to show myself I could.  I feel really good, I just can't get my mind where it belongs now.

I did my crunches and then hit the bike. I only had 20 minutes so my goal was 4 miles.

ran my four miles in 42:00. I am still just talking myself through it the entire time. Worked my abs and did a couple legs weights. Then I rode the bike for 20 minutes.