AM- 3 easy. Felt really good this morning.
PM- 3 mile warm up then RACE. I was super nervous before and I hadn't eaten so I was actually shaking pretty bad and my body felt light (not in a good way...like a dizzy way). I was nervous, because I'd never had a good region race in my running career ( fresh.- went out fast and died...lost to people I had NEVER lost to before, soph.-died and didn't get to go to state even though I'd been on the team all year and it was the state winning team, junior- I did good then the last mile I had a side cramp and died to around last place.) Sooo...you can see my reasons for being nervous, but I was determined to break down this mental wall! Then, the guns goes off and we start and I start out in the front with Mike and True Tom and am there for the first mile, but they made their move there and I was breathing hard, so I freaked out, but I wasn't tired or spent...I could've went...but mental wall sometimes have to be taken one brick at a time until the whole thing is too unstable to stand! I then started to die just a little, but still surged to try to keep up with mike, tom, and JJ. The desert hills guys caught and passed me and I tried to stay on them. Then, the last lap I was a little behind brigham and josh but I wasn't going to die....not like all the other regions! So, last 200m Ben came on me and I said in my mind 'no! you are not dying off!!!' so I sprinted all guts out and passed josh and was less than a second behind brigham! I think it was good to break down a mental wall....now I think I can take that into going to the next step....which I KNOW I can jump the gap between the two! | 