Race!- well I started out more middle pack for the first lap and the second lap I was going to push it up more than I did so I got stuck in the middle still and the third lap I did decent and the last lap I just finished it, but at the end they were yelling because some kid was going to catch me and I started to kick and found out I had a lot more left in me, because it didn't really take that much to go faster at the end and I was well within myself. Lesson learned- I really need to almost (this sounds stupid but is true) TRY! I almost just settle in this state that is kinda "yeah I'm going fast, but not really giving my all." kind of thing. Someone should just smack me while I am racing (if you call it that) and say "hey try hard you idiot!" because every race I seem to run WAY too within myself and don't reach my max. pain level. When it comes time to amp. it up I think, "Nah, I like this pace I think I'll stay here." not literally thinking that of course, but thats what I am basically doing! I am going to, tomorrow, just hammer myself in the ground because, to be honest, I HAVE NEVER DONE THAT! Always when we are cooling down I think "I have way too much energy for a cool down I should be like shuffling across the ground, because I have no energy left." It seems to me that I am scared of reaching my limit, scared of being the best me! Isn't that stupid!!!! No more fear of myself and pain, because pain is only in the mind and I control that so tomorrow I am going to do what I have been waiting for all season...yeah I was saying I was going to do that today, but I didn't say I was going to hammer myself into the ground just go faster...what I didn't realize is those correlate...TOMORROW IS D-DAY BABY!! | 