Believe to Achieve

My 5K.  First mile at 7:17 relaxed pace.  Second mile just slowed a bit (8:30.  It was raining and I was soaked and I had a "deja vu" feeling.  Like didn't I just run 26.2 miles in this exact weather?  Third mile started to pick it up and last 1/2 mile pushed it hard to make the average at 7:24.  5K time 22:55.   Not bad for not going too fast until the end.  I was drenched at the end and then just did a .6 mile loop for cool down.

Ran up 1100 North to canal in just under 16 minutes (best 15:39).  But wasn't trying to beat it.  But ran strong remainder of miles to get pace quicker each mile.  Last mile 6:30.  Mile before 7:08.  Total average pace:  7:39.  Ran at 7am.  Working first night shift as a nurse at AFH in a long time.  Used to work NICU for 16 years and worked days 6am to 6pm forever.  So this was tough for me the last two hours especially waiting to go back to sleep until I got my kids off to school at 9am.  Luckily next shift I work Troy will be home in the morning so I can sleep.  Having headaches after acupuncture still  so wonder if I will ever find a cure.  Get worse if I breath in fragrances (artificial, perfumes etc...).  Darn it.  Wish I was "normal".

This is supposed to be yesterdays entry that I wrote so really today I ran the 7 miles and on Tuesday I ran all over town doing errands (in my car) so doesn't count. 

Woke after only four hours of sleep and a night shift from 6pm to 6am at 2 in the afternoon.  Kind of like the dreadful third leg in wasatch back relay feeling kind of run .  Ran a decent wake up pace (first mile wondering where my body was in relation to my brain) after a mile or so.  The pace was fairly decent considering my need for normal sleep.  Pace: 8:39.

Major nerve pain headaches past few days.  Bordering on incapatible with a functional life.  Like how bad can they get without killing me?  Anyway....  Ran with husband felt good out in the fresh air and felt okay to pick up the pace.  Surprised by the course tool we had run 5.8 miles in 48:30.  That's an 8:22 pace.  Not sure how long I will keep up the better running as the health is declining from working nights again.  Something is up...like something isn't being checked on me here.  I am a nurse without a for sure diagnosis.  The nerve pain was in my left face to the side of my head to the base of my skull to my shoulder and blades somewhat going to my arm and hand.  It has subsided a bit but suddenly it will strike again, kind of like trigeminal neuralgia but persistent and not as intense.  My ear feels under water when this happens but my friend in audiology checked for me.  No fluid there.  "normal", so obviously neurological.  It goes in a pattern after it is in my right side of my head and down my neck and spine burning like the dickens.  My mom still thinks I may have MS because that is how her dad felt with it.  So far no plaques on MRIs so I think it is environmental cause perfumes and strong smells trigger it until I get way fatigued.  Sometimes it attacks my legs (no headache at this time, yay) but then my legs throb in constant nerve pain mostly in my thighs and feet and I just have to sit down.  It is no fun and I am finding I got to be strong so perhaps this trial could be overcome and I can be cured.  Sorry about pouring out my feelings today it has just been one of the worse "attacks" in a while.  My thinking also gets confusing and I get very forgetful.  Any advice please feel free.  Any known cures come on over and heal me.  IN the meantime I fight to live with strength and run with hope.