Basically.. I have no idea what's wrong with me. For some reason.. I've never been able to run well after region, any of my three years, in either track or xc. But today.. today was thee worst race I've run since.. who knows. And I'm not sure how I feel about it. I'm disappointed.. but I don't feel like I could have done much better than I did. After the race, I was really sad. And, of course, every time I started to be almost okay, someone would come over and hug me and I'd start crying. I probably would have been grumpy about it all day, except that someone put nasty poisoned Starburst in my bag and it was probably the greatest thing that happened to me the whole trip. But it wasn't like American Fork, where I was scared to push myself. I felt like I was pushing today, I really did. My legs ached really bad.. and the start was so fast I felt exhausted before we even got halfway through the first mile. But I felt like I was pushing. I just don't know why I can't run. People were passing me the entire race.. and I just couldn't stay up with them. I do feel really bad about letting the team down in the last race we'll ever run together.. that was the part that sucked the most. |