Go away, winter blues...
Couldn't get out of bed... finally did, but didn't feel like biking home. Sad, because it's not too cold out - I know there'll be colder days in the near future and I should take advantage of those days that aren't so cold.
After work I "ran" home.... Two miles into the run my right shin was killing me. The shin felt really tight, and I felt like crying. I was in the exact same place exactly a year ago. My shin was hurting, so I went to the doc, then I kept running on it, and it was better, then worse, then better, then worse, then my stress fracture was discovered. I know the date because it was just before the Gar Williams 1/2 marathon. Last year I ran the half and felt alright, but maybe this year I shouldn't. It's not the leg that had the stress fracture, and I can run on it, but I really want to know what's the deal. I need to make an appointment with a specialist and get a deep stride evaluation to find out what I'm doing with the right leg that causes these issues. My friend also suggested I wear tights even when the weather is not too cold. That may be a good idea - I tend to try to be tough and run on shorts unless it's super cold out, and my friend suggested my muscles need to stay warm throughout the run. So I'll try that and see if it helps. At this point though, I don't think it'd be a good idea to run the half on Saturday.
The other thing that I'm fighting against is negative vibes all around... my co-worker going through a separation is sad all the time... I try to be a good friend and support him cause I went through the same thing at his age, which brings me back memories of how tough it was for me too. It makes me so sad! And my roommate who was on travel for the past 3 months is back in town - she is so negative about everything all the time, it's really depressing! She is always complaining about TV shows, that they're not realistic or that medically that's impossible (she's a doctor) or who dresses that way in real life... it's a TV show for crying out loud!!! If you don't like it don't watch it! One thing is to make comments here and there but to yell at the TV about everything all the time is soooo annoying! Then she was looking for a book to read, so I went to my room and brought 10 books that I thought she may like. She yelled at me saying how could I bring those books that were so "heavy" and sad and they would make her feel all emotional on the plane! I had brought her "Desert Solitaire", "White Fang" and some other stuff... I had good intentions, if she didn't like my choices she could've just said "Thanks but these are not my type of books" !!! She honestly worries me, she has such a sarcastic view of the world... And she has been told by nurses that work with her that she needs to learn to deal with her patients better and try to simpathyse with them instead of coldly say "Of course you're sick, you're 100 lbs overweight and you never exercise!"... Anyway, she's gone for 3 months again the first week of January so I shouldn't complain... but it's tough being around people that are either negative for no reason or that are depressed for a good reason, and remaining positive. I'm trying. | 