I Probably Should Make My Blog Public again

I was slow on this--I finished in exactly an hour.

 Hopefully I'm off to a good start for the week as far as running is concerned.  Last week wasn't so hot.

Did 10 min. warm up, 20 minutes tempo (I felt good and pushed a little more at the end of those 20 minutes) and 10 min. cool down.  It was a good run with a couple girls on the team.

My kids were sick last week, this week my baby-sitter is sick with pneumonia, my husband was sick yesterday--who's turn is it next???

 I hope I can avoid all this crap that's going around.  Lots of kids are sick from school too.  I myself feel okay, but a bit mentally drained.  I skipped running yesterday to get school work/homework done and I felt horrible about it.

But this run was fine.  2.5 mile warm up.  A couple fast 800s (both at 3:30) and then a 1.5 mile cool down. 

An easy 2.5 warm up.  Timed 200s on the track for the kids (didn't do them myself).  An easy 2.5 cool down.  Sun came out for the first time in a while while we were running.

I ran 1.5 mile warm up with the girls and then ran about 1.5 during the races.  

Now it is time for a rant that I've been holding back for a couple weeks:

I have been feeling like I was getting my period for the past two weeks--the stomach cramping, the tiredness, the works.  But it hasn't come yet.  That could indicate a pregnancy, but I've taken a couple tests and they are negative.  I haven't taken one in about a week, but I'm now almost 2 weeks late.  And I'm going to be really depressed if I'm not pregnant and now I'm really worried, like there's something else wrong with me or something.  And so yesterday I started spotting, but no period yet.  I spotted during both previous pregnancies and the spotting didn't stop until I stopped running.  So I don't know if I'm pregnant or not and I'm afraid to take another negative test and if I'm not pregnant what's the deal with more than two weeks of PMS?  And if I am pregnant I think I might not be running.

So I'm taking today off and if I get my period, I'll run tomorrow.  If I don't I'll take another test.  I don't know how people go through this if they are trying to get pregnant and it takes months.  I feel emotionally drained.