Running for two--or, mostly walking

Cross country skiing with the hubby.  Really nice time down on the golf course.  I took it pretty easy and Paul enjoyed the hills.  Perfect Christmas day.  Mostly we just laid around all day, so it was good to get out and do some physical activity.  I didn't get a run in yesterday because I think that cold I assumed I had kicked is still kicking me.  Hopefully I'll feel better later in the week.

Not a spectacular run I have to admit.  I only really ran half of it.  Slow.  I don't know why I'm so tired, but I get going and then reach a point where I can barely lift my legs.  I'm just going to chalk it up to still being sick (my head hurts now when I bend over, which is really inconvenient) and hope that I'm feeling better in time to actually run the 5k on Monday.

Pretty much the same as yesterday.  I hope I can get some more energy soon.  On a brighter note, I have been sleeping really well, so I can't complain too much.

Same as the last 2 days.  I'm getting really sick of this, feeling a little depressed and disappointed with myself, and wondering how I'm going to run Moab.  I know, it's only 5 miles and it's still a couple months away, but it's still on my mind.  Hopefully tomorrow's run, being outside and all, will be a little better and a little more encouraging.  If not, there's always more Veronica Mars to lift my spirits (not because it's uplifting, but because I love it).

Did I mention that I've been sleeping well. Last night I slept like a rock and for a long time, too. In fact, I slept in so late that Paul finally came in and said he was going to run errands. I said I would go with him and he said, "No, I'm going right now." So, needless to say, I rolled back over and stayed in bed a little longer. I know that sleeping in won't cure my sleepiness, but my bed is just so comfortable.

Anyway, my run pretty much mirrored the rest of my runs this week, except that it was really cold because it was outside and I did more miles. I did the same run that I did last Saturday, but ran far less of it. Not really sure what is going to happen Monday, but since I'm not out to win any awards anyway, I'll just be glad that I got out there and did it, even if it does take me 45 minutes to run a 5k in the dark and cold. Here's to hoping I don't finish in last place.

Oh, and have I mentioned the dizziness?  It seems like about a mile into my run, or when my heartrate gets over 150 (I've worn a monitor a couple times this week) I start getting slightly dizzy.  So, that, coupled with the tired adds up to needing to walk to bring my heart rate down just so I don't fall on my face.  The longer I run, the dizzier/more tired I get.  Oddly enough, I usually have more energy after my run than I do during it, for a little while anyway.  

I'm trying to be grateful for the good things in my life.  My wonderful husband, family, and friends.  Job security.  Financial security.  All of the blessings that God pours out on me every day.  It seems like I forget sometimes that my life is really blessed and I start getting depressed and then I start to despair.  Often I just need a reminder to get me back on the right track.  Paul gave me that last night.  Once again, grateful for the hubby.