Running because I can!

My lesson was on self Mastery today. I think I needed it more than the girls did.  There were so many good quotes.

One of my favorite one's was.

"The height of a man's success is gauged by his self -mastery; the depth of his failure by his self-abandonment.....He who cannot establish a dominion over himself will have no dominion over others. He who masters himself shall be king"

I also read this story about a girl who fell down and was crying and by the time her mother got to her she had stopped crying, and the mother asked why she stopped, the little girl said "I just told myself to stop and then I made myself mind me"

So I guess I need to liken myself to a child and mind myself.

I love that my last two lessons have helped me mentally prepare for my next week of reaching my goals.

I ran the first three miles then I walked for a few minutes and streched before I finished my last mile. My legs and knee's seemed stiff today.

I finished in 50 minutes. 

I spent the rest of my afternoon at my doctors appointment. She seems to think that my insulin is still wacky and says if they can get that all under control that I will be able to train much better. (Without feeling so drained all the time anyways.)

I have been taking my vitamins and oil every day and I think I might feel better.  My hives are finally leaving so I will be able to sleep now.

Today was a really bad day.

I was put on a new medication last night and I could not get up today.  My twins messed up so much in my body that I am still trying to fix. 

But also for some reason my knee's and shins hurt today more than any day since i have really started to run.  I more than likely would have ended up doing cross training today and weights.

When I got to the gym today they told me my pass was no longer good to bring my kids because my pass had been put into corporate computer as a regular pass. Then they said that my baby was sick so he had to leave.

So I left after .75 miles and totally mad.  So I was on the phone all day trying to fix my pass. They fixed it but because of the guy who signed me up and I had to take him down at another location. 

I had young women's tonight and then it was my husbands turn to go work out. I managed to get on the treadmill and only went.75 before the baby was awake and won't let me put him down. So here I sit. (NICE)!

I am hoping tomarrow is a much better day.

I ran 2 miles and considering my leg pain the last couple of days I did not want to push it so I went and worked my abs and lifted legs weights.

Then I rode 3 miles on the bike.

I also was thinking I am going to be doing alot of walking with my kids tonight.

I ran my four miles in 46:00. I walked some of it.

I did some ab work. Then I rode the bike for 25 minutes. 

Other than my legs feeling tired I feel pretty good.

I think if I could get a good nightds sleep I would be twice as good.

We had three older boys in our home last year for about 9 months. Matt and I got to know there parents pretty well. I decided that there dad was a decent guy and he really loved his boy's. He did everything he could to get them back and living with him. I watched and helped bring these boy's and there dad come together. Well last night he was killed in an acident at work, he was crushed my his front end loader.  So those boy's have nothing.

Anyways I have this horriable head cold and I cried a good part of last night and I can't seem to shut the tears off even today. 

I am not sure how running and being sick works.  I know I could channel my anger and hurt of this death into running a good run but I am not sure if it is bad on the cold.  

I never did find a good time to go run yesterday. My baby is sick and I ended up having to take him in and get breathing treatments.  It is just one thing right after another.

So today I swore no matter what I would get out and run. I went to a babtizm. And because Tallon was sick and coughing all night I hardly slept. The doctor says it usually hits the hardest around 2:00am so I stayed up with him until then to make sure he could breath.

When I got home from the babtize I wanted to go take a nap but I told my husband if I didn't run now I wouldn't so I told him to drive me and my dog up the Alpine highway and leave me there so I had no choice. I told him 5 miles but the next place to pull off was way farther up and he was not liking me running out side because he still has that horriable death on his mind.

It was good. I was able to breath alot better than I thought I would seeing as I have a horriable cold. I did feel good when My poor dog kept wanting to lay down. I told Matt it is pretty sad that I am in better shape than my lab.

I finished in exactly 60 minutes. I think I would have done alot better if it were not for my dog. I even ended up giving my water to her instead of myself me cause she was foaming at the mouth.  (that required me to stop and open her mouth and pore the water in that way.)

I also thought I needed to clear my mind so I ran with out music today and it was very good for me.