"If we don't suffer enough we won't remember it."

4 miles avg 7:23 pace.  I didn't sleep well last night so I'm tired.  Over the weekend I said something to my husband about my push-ups/pull-ups etc.  My husband told me my arms were looking bigger.  That wasn't what I wanted to hear!  I told him, "I'm not going for bigger, I just want to be stronger!"  He tried to recover by saying I looked more "toned."  I do feel stronger though.  I graduated from doing women's push-ups to men's push-ups today.  I had to cut back on the number though.

10 mile run with hills, avg 7:13 pace.  It was 8 degrees when I woke up so I waited until 10:00 a.m. when it was a toasty 15 degrees outside. 

I thought for a few minutes abougt skipping today because I'm doing speed work tomorrow and running my 10 on Thursdsay, but I needed the run mentally.  My compulter was freaking out, shutting down, and at first I thought it was because the plug wasn't in really good in the back.  But then I got a message saying it failed to start and the "start-up repair" began.  Three prayers and 20 minutes later the computer seemed to be working again, but my anxiety level was still really high.  The computer is only 9 months old and this is the time of year I really need it to do my bookkeeping. 

8 miles total.  Met Emily, Melody, Desiree, Rebeca and Josse at the BYU indoor track for a speed workout.  8 x 800 meters with 1 1/2 lap jogging recovery.  My splits were: 2:53 (too fast), 3:01, 3:01, 3:02, 3:01, 3:01, 3:01, 3:03.  I felt the worst on #2 and #3 because I did the first one too fast.  After #4 I thought I wouldn't be able to do 8, but 3:01 must have been the right pace, because I didn't feel any worse on #5, 6 and 7.  I felt the fatigue setting in on the last one though and was glad to stop.

I was tired from my run yesterday.  This morning I woke up at 4:30 a.m. when I heard the computer make a noise.  I was afraid it was spontaneously shutting down on me again and I was all of the sudden totally awake with a rush of anxiety.  I laid there stressing about it for 15 min then walked into the office and it seemed to be just fine.  I still couldn't go back to sleep before my alarm went off at 5:15 a.m.

4 miles avg 7:07

20 miles avg 7:16 pace.  Met Melody, Josse, Rebecca and two other girls I've never met before who were in town visiting.  Ran up Provo Canyon 7 miles from the River Woods to Vivian.  We didn't plan to go up that far, but the trail was amazingly clear.  I was so thirsty when we got there that I pulled out a Poweraid I stashed away last August.  It only took one sip to learn that 5 month old Poweraid tastes funny an might have mold in it.  Our pace up was about 7:45.  Melody and I sped up on the way down and did a 5 mile tempo starting after mile 10.  The tempo miles were 6:17,6:19,6:14,6:17,6:22.  The first three miles were together then I just had to stop at the drinking fountain but Melody kept going.  I got a drink and it was a little hard to get going fast again, but after about 1/2 mile I felt better.  We met up and ran another 5 miles with the other girls.  It started to really rain the last mile and continued to rain and then snow most of the day so I was glad we ran when we did.