Road to Joy

So the babysitting thing continues to be a struggle.  Talking to my husband tonight I realized that I need to let go of being as ambitious about my training as I was on the last marathon.  Last marathon he was home and able to give me an hour-and-a-half a day when he'd be home from PT and getting ready for work to run in.  And then I could wake up early on Saturdays and get half my run in before anyone else woke up so we didn't have to sacrifice too much of our Saturdays to long runs.  So I hit every workout exactly like I wanted to - well, every workout but one - with little to no stress on anyone.  This time I'm missing things right and left and I'm more fatigued at finding a babysitter than I am at running.  Quite frankly I'm the type of person that would rather NEVER ask anyone to do anything for me - one of my many personality flaws.  So this is just killing me to do it on a daily basis.  The fact that I've asked for help consistently for the last 5 months alone is testimony of how much I love to run.  But I can't keep it up - its getting too stressful and I'm putting the stress onto other people.  So from this day forward I'm going to keep training, but I'm committed to being flexible about what I can do and what I can't.  If I'm not getting enough miles in by the time June comes around, I might switch to the half-marathon, or even the 5K if it comes to that, from the marathon.  And I'm promising myself right now that I'm not going to be disappointed.  I think for this "in-between-pregnancys" I'm going to just make sure I stay healthy and in shape.  I'll see what the future brings.  Maybe someday things will gel like they did when we lived in Arizona - life always has its times and seasons.

Fewf, I'm glad to get that off my cheast.  Now for some sleep.