40:45. OH NO ... I couldn't believe when Greg told me to run 40` today ... oh why oh why. I can't be in taper (Greg calls it "peaking"). I feel horrible, fat, my legs feel like big hams on top of my calves. I am not ready, I have not run enough, I am slow. And how does one gain 2 pounds in less than 4 days without overeating (which I haven't)?? I can't believe the poundage creep I am experiencing. And just when I was so near my happy weight.
OK. Panic over. I know it is simply not logical for me to be so anxious - after all this is just for fun, it is not like it is my livelihood (of course I have risked my livelihood, or at least my ability to make tenure next year, to train for this marathon). I am still, illogically or not, nervous and anxious about this upcoming race.
I came home from my jog feeling out-of-sorts, after "remembering" how great and prepared for my last race I felt -- well, I asked Dean about "how I felt" and he said, "you felt exactly like you do today". Hmmmm, selective memory?
Happy days bloggers. |