Oh grrrr I know...haven't ran in 4 days. 12 miles scheduled tomorrow with the girls. Such a battle this is. I'm depressed, and I don't have motivation to run, but running corrects that depression better than any pill. So I know I must. And I do, with my friends , the same friends who have carried me and my family to hell and back. So we will run 12 tomorrow, and I do not yet give up on being a consistent runner. I keep failing but this year I'm gonna keep trying no matter how many times I fail, no matter how many times I go a week without running. Some day it will click. My husband, my family, my kids, we continue to strive for healing. That path is not easy and it's not fluid, but we will get there.
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