Racing through the Madness

Ok.  I know I say this so incredibly often and never follow through, but i really want to maintain my focus and get into marathon shape.  Life is never going to be without distractions and work and family obligations, but there's no more room for excuses.  If i want to achieve this goal, I am going to have to commit 100% and stay focused. EVERY DAY.  It has to come 3rd. Family, work, running, and believe me I wish I could make it number 2.  I have to be constantly mindful of my nutrition and every habit i do.  This is the only way.  I have a newfound determination and im not gonna let it slip thru my fingers any more.  I want this in the sweet spot every day.  And it will get easier. And I will do it.  I will prove to myself that i can do this.

My last day off for awhile. (from work I mean).  French Creek mid morning run.  Did the loop only once and felt like crap again :(  I dont know what the problem is.  Maybe ive just temporarily lost my groove.. But im determined to get it back.  Gonna do another mid morning run tomorrow.  Days Dam hopefully.  It hasnt been my breathing, its been my legs feeling all lactic acidy, and i know its not really that but i cant remember the correct chemical that in fact causes the pain.  Just gotta stick with the health food diet, and stay determined.

Finally felt a little stronger today!  Started out with legs of lead again.  Started attributing it to the jalepenos i ate last night.  Gradually they started to stretch  out however, and I didnt feel like death upon finishing. Even picked up the pace for a few strides.  Need to remain determined. Need to keep running at the constant forefront of my mind.  I am going to live and breathe running, read about it every chance i get for motivation, be mindful of every nutritional choice i make, and race that half marathon in january.  Who knows how long I have to be healthy in this lifetime, and if not now, when?  PS - no more jalepenos, they always f me up.

Legs still didn't feel too great today.