Well, its been an eventful week for me...I started work, working for St. George City in the green house and it is pretty awesome. It is hard work and exhausting, but enjoyable. Hours are 6-2 so I haven't been motivated to go running this week. I need to work it into my schedule somehow. I miss it. I was going to go on Thursday, but we hiked some of Pine Valley so once again, I didn't have the motivation. Needless to say, I got out today and I felt great. Took it nice and chill with my dad and it was very enjoyable. I'm having a hard time running without people who I felt like needed me. There is no accountability or a desire to help others because I don't have the team anymore. I didn't realize how much I needed them, until now...when I don't have them. I really don't know how to explain it. It is so complicated. But, I can now strongly testify that being on a team and having people who count and trust that you will give your best effort, builds confidence and allows the body to do and accomplish more than it could ever imagine. Being on a team is a powerful thing and I'm grateful for the chance I had to be on such a team. A team that lifted me up, a team that built my character, and a team that pushed me to do the impossible. Somehow I hope to find motivation and drive through something else, but I know it's going to take some searching.
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